The true seeker

[Mrs. Darth Vader]

A true seeker is one who asks many questions. One who reads any book until the answer they seek has come. My journy to the dark side started like any other. I started out as a light sider. cercumstances forced me to question things around me. I started in the usual places namely, the church. The failers if this instatution soon showed themselves. I expanded my religious search to include the occult, mystacism, magic arts, alternate religions and so on. I studied these feaverishly looking for answers and also looking for power. All this reading and study was interesting but my situation never changes so I continued my search accross the barren land. I even read all sides of the political isle. Like Darth Bane, the elusive Sith power I was looking for never showed itself. Like Anakin I wanted more than what I see in this grey dull world of the mundane. I used to ask "Why Does God?" After many failers as a teacher I desided I was asking the wrong question. So I changed my question to "Why Does'nt God". And again I read more. I finally got to read a book about Albert Einstein from Empress Palpatine. I finished that book and am in the middle of another about Einstein but this one focuses on his theories. In the pages of this book the answer came because Einstein explained the one puzzle piece that I did not have on how the universe really worked. Even Carl Sagan had that gap. I got much from Sagan so this in NO WAY takes away from him. Just Einstein was needed to fill in one spot. Einstein explained why all our meditations only have so much power and can never pass it. Sagan said things on this topic also but Einstein made it click together. The answer finally came. It was not the warm fuzzy answer we wish to hear but hard facts of the Sith. As Carl Sagan said in cosmos "I would rather believe in a sobering truth than a happy delusion.". Here I agree with Sagan because if you know the facts you can make intelogent descissions based on them. Now I know wher the lines truely are. How far a meditation can help you and their limitations. I do consider myself as one who has tried it all. I went from conventional religion to forms of practices wher you try to effect the material plane with magic to a more balanced view of meditations are for relaxing you so you think more clearly but it will not move mountians.

[Azazel]

I must reach tha conclusion that, during your browsing of religions, you never really read any really hardcore budist texts.
They would have told you that same line, good for relaxing, but no death choke available.
In the end, its good that it turn out that way, or we would be having one less sith brother/sister.

[Mrs. Darth Vader]

I have read Bhudism but they did not crystalize it the way Albert Einstein did. Well it is good as you say but from the point of view of knowing the facts and how far a meditation can go. Its bad or sad from the purely Sith point of view of I really wanted to be able to do the Vader choke. My sentaments wanted to be a Sith with power and the ability to change my lot in life. I like any one else wanted to win. Now I have to except that things in my situation can not change. This has a certian strength of the ability to except the things that one can not change.

[Azazel]

Giving up the fight already?
Why cant you change the things in your life? Is it a closed book already?
You know for sure what will happen to you tomorrow? you are a helpless willingless person that whants to solve things "the easy way" ?
Have you tried to change your life by other ways besides using medieval witchcraft techniques or vudu dolls ?
You think the politicians that rule this world, start wars and send peple to die in them have special powers or out of this world alien technologie ?
If you cant make a fresh start in the book of your life, just get a eraser, or a better argument for it, but be sure YOUR the one writting the book.
Budist texts dont crystalize things, they always left space for self-understanding of things, because if your forced to think, your evolution as a person goes along with it.

[Mrs. Darth Vader]

Witchcraft was the LAST attempt. Of course I tried politics and the more muggle earthly approach since they were athiest based and well proven. I did those first.

BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!!

[Azazel]

And happened to persistence, patience and preserverance ?
Do you think the roman empire was built in a week or two ?
If something fails, redesign it, rework the strategy.